An Article by Gail Fonda
By
Gail Fonda
All of us have daily responsibilities that can be emotionally very taxing and hard to live with. Sometimes I am so stressed out just from waking up at 6:15 AM every morning and doing what needs to be done just to get to work. I sometimes wonder how I can keep going on.
My husband and I have lost many family members in 2005, so we were happy to be rid of the year. In addition, we lost our beloved Alaskan Malamute, Timber, to a brain tumor. We expected him to live another five years or so. We were totally devastated. Our only comfort turned out to be placing his photo and memorial on Rainbow Bridge, a site for grieving animal parents.
My job is not that professionally fulfilling, it's a rather dull and repetitive, but secure, government job. I had trouble maintaining regular employment over the years, which I think stems from coming from a dysfunctional family and trying to make my way in the world with little or no direction in my life. Though I graduated from college with a B.A. in Journalism, I never had the confidence or self-esteem to reach the goals I had hoped for myself.
I needed to find some kind of outlet for my anger, anxiety, frustration and depression at not knowing what my life is supposed to be about. Why am I alive? I asked myself that since childhood and I still don't know the answer now that I am in middle age.
I drifted from boyfriend to boyfriend and job to job, questioning my own existence. But I finally got married, quite late in life, to a professional person who can at least offer me strength, encouragement and everything I need, both monetarily and psychologically. But I still needed to gain strength in other ways.
I began writing over the Internet nine years ago, hoping to make some kind of name for myself. It's been a tough road, since I am not a famous person and I don't have any particular specialty. But I think I found a little niche for myself.
I can write about relationships, since I've had so many, I can write about women's issues, since I've lived through so many traumatic experiences myself. I can give advice on what not to do, so that, hopefully, other people don't have to suffer what I suffered. Maybe I can offer help to others, emotionally, when I needed some myself, and there was nowhere for me to turn.
I have my writing, my dogs and my exercise. I've been exercising on a regular basis for about 22 years now. It gives me mental strength, physical strength and helps get rid of negative attitudes I've had my entire life.
Whatever anyone does for a living, it can get dull, boring and can bring you down. The endorphins I get from exercising helps tremendously. I've changed exercise routines and exercise facilities over the years, but, when I skip even a week of exercise, my moods become grim again, I get angrier quicker and the old negativity about life returns.
Exercise also helps lower my blood pressure, reduce hot flashes and helps prevent my migraines. I've had those all my life and they're horrible! Exercise will help maintain a healthy weight in addition to the psychological benefits. Just do it, and you'll find out for yourself how valuable exercise really is!
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Gail Fonda is the author of "My Private Hell: Struggle & Survival," available through PublishAmerica.com. You'll read about the details of her personal journey from dysfunction to a healthier lifestyle with exercise.



